Why do I write?

I always ask Sung to read my newspaper columns before I submit them. He isn’t much of a reader or writer, but he has an innate sense of good vs. bad with anything art-related.

For this month’s column, I wanted to celebrate my marriage and highlight my new last name. I used my blog post about how Sung and I met. But chopping it down to 600 words did not do the story any favors.

Sung read my draft and shook his head.

“You hide your emotions,” he said, “it’s so dry. It’s like reading instructions for assembling a vacuum.”

I got prickly. “What do you mean? I put my heart into it.”

“The problem is that you’re writing to impress people. And there’s some block you have between what you want to say and what you actually say.”

All that room he found for improvement left me feeling discouraged.

In my gut, I know he’s right. But my brain can’t seem to translate his criticism into a solution. How do I be more vulnerable in my writing?

Is the problem what I’m saying, or how I’m saying it? Am I thinking too much about my words, or not enough?

When I scroll through my Google Doc journal, all I read is raw reaction spilling out of me. It’s useful material: a cache of nostalgia to jog my memory, a catalogue of phrases I like, years of free therapy. The one use it doesn’t have is shareability. It’s all out-of-context rants mixed with poems that don’t make sense.

There’s nothing wrong with that, and I’ll keep writing in private for the rest of my life. But something is pushing me to grow as a writer.

“Become a better writer” is a very vague goal. I guess to me, it means writing something that other people could potentially enjoy.

I started this blog because I hope it will help me become the best writer I can be. Like my newspaper columns, just the idea of a potential audience motivates me to work harder at expressing myself.

When I’m thinking about writing, this Shakespeare quote always pops in my head: “Brevity is the soul of wit.” I believe it means that using the minimum amount of words to convey a concept forces creativity. I think being concise is an indication of good writing. Here are some other things I strive to do as I write:

Find a topic people can relate to

Don’t use over-the-top vocabulary or metaphors

Check that my explanations make sense outside of my own head

For my May column I eventually found a different way to tell the story, and Sung liked my final draft. I’m grateful he always gives me honest and helpful feedback to improve my writing.

I hope to figure out what is blocking me from taking my writing to the next level. Maybe it’s fear, maybe it’s ego. Maybe my ideas just need more time to marinate.

Maybe the key is to write for the benefit of other people with enough vulnerability that it sounds like I’m simply writing for my self?

Maybe I should stop trying so hard.

If I ever manage to unlock the level of writing I’m aiming for, it will probably be a happy accident.

4 thoughts on “Why do I write?

  1. Your vulnerability is so inspiring here! Writing is expression of the soul and through it, you will learn, grow and evolve over and over again! It’s the most beautiful journey! Follow that something inside that’s talking to you…you’re already an amazing writer and I’m sure greater things are to come!!! Keep shining and much love, my friend 🖤🤗

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Thank you Ace , your words put a smile on my face! Yup I feel like writing has already helped me find so much clarity within myself and now I want to keep on evolving. Thank you for the encouragement and inspiration!!😁

      Liked by 1 person

  2. I so relate to all this! I really like your writing. You are clear and consise which are two traits I also value and try to respect. I am sure there is something to what your husband is saying and it will prove to be useful advice but probably will only come to fruition slowly.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Thank you, I really appreciate that. You’re right: writing goals won’t magically bloom overnight. I know I need practice, lots more feedback, and to get really comfortable with myself. 🥰 But there’s no rush if I can enjoy the process!

      Liked by 1 person

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s