well,
well,
well.
or unwell
If unsure which I am, I suppose I am well
In the bland land between vapid youth and old age
He complains “this is why I don’t like when you drink, you get moody”
can we reframe that to
just contemplating life
Although I admit I’m agitated lately
As I realize how finite time is daily
Knowing a life well-lived isn’t given, it’s made
In the series of mundane decisions and choices
Like tonight I chose to watch a show with him, a new episode about his favorite rapper
And then bake cakes for the fire station, wash the dishes, clean the kitchen
But that means now it’s too late to shower and I sleep with dirty feet, biggest pet peeve
And I’m too tired for homework due at 11:59, for the first time in my life I’m turning stuff in late
In the back of my mind always: now picture this with kids
My keyboard is dark so I go by feel and try to type softly
Light outs, he needs good sleep before a 48 hour shift
I drown out our breathing with pink noise frequency
Kanye’s mother Donda told him before he was famous:
“A giant looks in the mirror and sees nothing.”
I look in the mirror tonight and as usual I see everything
But once I look past the pores and pimples, the anxiety and anger,
My reflection becomes an outline of something
Is it who I was?
Or, who I’m supposed to be?
Lizi Rose 
nice slice of life….take care 🤗🤗
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Thank you for reading!!
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sounds like a full day, but I can understand the desire for a few quiet moments and me time throughout the day.
how nice of you to bake cakes for the fire station!
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Well luckily they were cakes baked from a box mix, otherwise I would have to feel sorry for the firefighters! (I am comically bad at baking from scratch)😅
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:) but at least you bake. I am sure the firefighters loved the cakes!
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What a provocative and insightful poem. It seems that if you ask the right questions, you usually get meaningful answers. Sending lots of wishes for the right answers!
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thank you so much 🌹 I like to capture my moments of uncertainty so that hopefully I can look back someday from a more grounded place 🙂
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This was beautiful and terrifying, passionate and raw, everything that life holds! That reflection just beyond clear vision is whatever you make – you have the choice and the control!
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Thank you so much for such kind and wise words. Your comment is like poetry 🧡
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These lines – love them:
Knowing a life well-lived isn’t given, it’s made
In the series of mundane decisions and choices
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Thank you 🧡
“a life well-lived isn’t given it’s made” keeps running through my head, it causes either stress or a sense of peace, depending on my perspective that day.
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I completed my degree while keeping up with little ones. Your post took me back. Nicely reflective
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Getting a degree is an achievement — but doing it while parenting is truly on another level. My hats off to you. Thank you very much for sharing and for your kind words.
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Welcome
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I loved this… everything about it! Thank you for sharing it 🧡
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Thank you so much Tamara ! You make me less nervous to share my poetry!!
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Your poetry has actually inspired me to write a bit more poetry! 🧡🧡🧡
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That makes me smile. Can’t wait to read more of yours 🌹
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So true and so perceptive. The sacrifice for the family and the relationship. It usually takes a superwoman to handle all the responsibilities. From my observation, I know that if one is not a superwoman, one needs to have parents to rely on for child rearing or one has enough money to pay for helps. Otherwise, it is impossible.
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I feel this in the core of my soul 😅I know I’m not superwoman so if I have kids in the future I will need to rely on family support. I can’t/won’t do it alone!
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The Universe is unfolding as it should. And you are making good decisions even if you don’t always recognize them as such.
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Thank you for the reminder. In my calm moments I know that’s the truth. 🙂
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